" I try to move foreward and not look back, because everytime i close my eyes i see my past." Poem for english (:

What do i make?
That's a silly question.
i make devoted Christians cringe.
Apparently, they think using a saints bracelet to hide my scars is unholy....
i make my friends think that 'm really a daring person, and maybe i am....
but that's just the mania talking.
Speaking of mania.
i'm on top of the world !
Don't judge me, i'm smarter then you !
No i'm not conceited.
i'm bipolar.
i'm everything.
i'm you.
i'm me.
i'm amazing.
i drink, i smoke, i hurt you, i hurt me, and i DON'T CARE.
i'm on top of the world.
and i'm s l o w l y
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Oh, here comes the blue....

Ever wake up in the morning and have NO energy?
i do.
i still drink.
i still smoke.
and i hurt more then ever before.
my head is screaming.
there's a reason i don't capitalize my I's.
because i don't matter.
Do i really deserve that kind of recognition?
i am nothing.
i am the pills that numb my mind; the razor teeth that bite my skin;
i am everything i never wanted to be.
and everything you hate.......


Here comes the white again.....

i am Kate.
and this is me.
this is my life.
It's brutal, but honesty is what i live by.....